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I thought I would start feeling better, when is it that I'm going to feel different? Honestly, I'm starting to think that no matter what I do it won't make a bit of difference.

P.s. writing every day when I was doing the 30 day song challenge was a lot easier. It just seems as though I have nothing but sadness and depression to share. Ugh!!!!!

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Life is so funny, one minute you're here and the next gone.  I just wanted this year to be about change and about getting my life where it needs to be. Its time. I've been saying that for almost 6 months now.

Its FUCKING TIME~!!

Ugh

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I'm not sure why I never posted the last song of the 30 Day Song Challenge. I choose Michelle Featherstone's I'm there Too. Enjoy.

30 Day Song Challenge day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year: I thought I posted this, but I guess I didnt. I can't believe it's been 30 days already. A month come and gone. The minute I heard this song I fell in love with it. I still love it. Sad and eerie and just...very different.

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I am a terrible person. Nothing I do or say can change that.I just want my life to be different. I mean, seriously! What is it about me that makes me such an easy target for that type of person?

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What the hell something is wrong with my blogger account. Seriously wtf???!!!

Okay that was crazy. I couldn't get logged into my account at all. That was sooo freakin' annoying!!

Okay, back to the last couple of days of my 30 Day Song Challenge.





30 day Song Challenge day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty: I can't believe that I haven't put any Alison Krauss songs on here yet. Had to fit her in, duh. This song always makes me wish I'd done some things differently. There's nothing quite like Miss Alison. 

30 Day Song Challenge day 29 - a song from your childhood: I'm gonna post a couple of these as there are soooo many songs that remind me of my childhood. We always always had some music going. I'm starting with Sawyer Brown's the Race is On. Mostly because I specifically remember going with my Gramma and Grandpa to the Mississippi Valley Fair to see them one year. My Grandpa bought me a bandanna. Why, you ask? I have no idea, cuz I wanted it. lol I just remember I loved them. 

 

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30 day Song Challenge day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty: I can't believe that I haven't put any Alison Krauss songs on here yet. Had to fit her in, duh. This song always makes me wish I'd done some things differently. There's nothing quite like Miss Alison.

Alison Krauss + Union Station are truly amazing.

Lots of Love,
Kristi

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30 Day Song Challenge day 27 - a song that you wish you could play: Yiruma-River Flows in You. I love this song and I completely wish I could play the whole thing on the piano. Soooo pretty. It should've been Bella's Lullaby.

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30 Day Song Challenge day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument: Pachelbel's Canon in D. Yes, I know it's ridiculous but I LOVE this song, every single version. I've spent countless hours trying to play this song on the piano. It's really just beautiful.

I'm posting the piano version, which is pretty much what I play, and my favorite version. Enjoy!!!

 

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Not sure how I missed last night, I thought I posted about Wyatt's Transition Ceremony. Guess I didnt. I'll post about that later with pics. Right now I need to catch up on my 30 Day Song Challenge.

30 Day Song Challenge day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral: I don't really like thinking about this, too final for me. However, I really do like this song. Musically, lyrically and emotionally. So, perhaps this song. Enjoy it regardless.

30 Day Song challenge day 25 - a song that makes you laugh: This song always makes us laugh doesn't it Karrie? I know when they sing this live you can't help but smile. Oh Patrick Murphy how I love thee.

Enjoy my friends.

K

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somehow I skipped a day. Here's Day 22

30 Day Song Challenge day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad: Somehow I skipped a day. So I had to go back and do this one. I don't know that I listen to this when I'm sad, but it makes me sad and yet it's a fabulous song. Fly Away Home was a really good movie and this song is fantastic. Anna Paquin back in the day. Crazy.

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30 Day Song Challenge day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry: this is such a "pop-y" song but you know what, it's totally a SCREW YOU song. Love it!! "I'm alright and I'm gonna show you..."

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30 Day Song Challenge day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding: Not gonna happen, but if it ever were, I know I'd fit this song in there somewhere because I absolutely LOVE VSQ and this song is sooo beautiful.

Also, a little So You Think You Can Dance thrown in for good measure. Good moves, good music. Can't get much better than that.

Muah!!

Kristi

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I'm so saddened and just completely upset by the news I just heard. Mama Cliff passed away. She was like a staple in my high school career. I was best friends with her son. I"m just in shock.

It makes me miss my friend even more. I can't believe he didnt tell me. I can't believe I didnt know she was sick. It's just awful.

Gwen Cliff, may you find light in the dark and love in the cold. I hope you are at peace and always remain so.

With Love and Respect,
Kristi

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Why do they reappear when you think youve gotten over them? I mean, what is it about this guy that I just can't let go of? He's amazing always has been and sometimes I wish that I could forget him but most of the time I just wish he was here.

I am an idiot.

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30 Day Song Challenge day 19 - a song from your favorite album: I don't have a favorite album, but I LOVED this movie and I've listened to and sung along with this song about a million times.

This movie and soundtrack actually show that Christina Aguilera has true talent. She just hides it sometimes.

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30 Day Song Challenge day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio: I LOVE The Noisettes and I wish they got more coverage. I adore this song. So much fun!

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I realized today that what I write about every day has pretty much changed. lol So, I thought I'd include an update.

I have been on less one Mt Dew per day for over a month now. I still don't see a big difference, but I figure it's inside that's changing. Saw a friend i hadn't seen in a while and she said I had a nice glow about me. That I looked healthier. That is the best compliment Ive had in awhile. I still look fat. That's the next thing to work on. However, I haven't had a Mt Dew in over a week. That is SOOOOo huge for me. Working my way toward a healthier Kristi.

Love Yas,
Kristi

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30 Day Song Challenge day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio: I never, EVER listen to the radio. However, Wyatt loves this song and so every single time he's in the car we have to listen to it at least 4 times. I consider that my over-playing of one song. ☺

I used the edited version for my post on FAcebook, but I'm using the explicit version here because no one is ever going to read it.

love ya,
Kristi

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Why do people suck? I just don't get it. I mean I know that in the grand scheme of things, I pretty much suck. There isn't anything special about me. I sometimes feel like I'm still a teenager with stupid expectation. Then other times I feel like an old woman. It's sooooo sad.

blah

Sometimes I really wish i wasn't me.

Lots of Love,
Kristi

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So, happy Mother's day to me...I was deathly ill and in my bed literally all day. I had whatever Wyatt had on Thursday night. Nausea diarrhea, the works. soooooo...yesterday was Day 15 and I didnt get a c hance to post. Now I am.

I picked In my Life, by the Beatles as my song day 15 - a song that describes you:

For Day 16...I still got nothing. day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate... I can't really pick one. I don't really hate any songs that I used to love. I generally keep loving them. I've gotten sick of some of them, but that usually passes and then I love them again.... I"ll have to consider this a little more.

Love yas,
Kristi

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30 Day Song Challenge day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love: Thanks Karrie and Genessa for broadening my horizons. I do like SOAD actually quite a bit. I'm including two of their songs, just because.

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30 Day Song Challenge day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure: Yep, you read that right, it's The Chipmunks. I LOVED this movie when I was little. I suppose I should've saved this for "reminds you of your childhood" but it's totally fitting as a guilty pleasure. You can't exactly roll up to a stoplight blaring The Chipmunks and Chipettes without a few heads shaking. ☺

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30 Day Song challenge Day 12 - a song from a band you hate: Again, I don't really listen to what I hate, however, as a general rule I really don't like a lot of rap or the current R&B...however, I must admit i really enjoy their collaborations with other artists. I happen to really really like this song. Enjoy!

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30 day Song Challenge day 11 - a song from your favorite band: Again, not sure I have a favorite band. I like so many, but I have seen GS about 8 times I think at this point. So....can't go wrong. Plus this video has lego guys, what's more fun than that? Enjoy!!

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Ive got a song to post, but for some reason. My iPad won't let me post links from YouTube properly. Boooooooo color me annoyed. I chose Clair de lune as a song you can fall asleep to. It's a good one..... Now I'm going to go to bed. I've been so exhausted lately.

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30 Day Song Challenge day 09 - a song that you can dance to: I make Wyatt dance with me to this song every time it comes on. It Xander's around I make him do it too!! :)

I can't really believe I hadn't included any Gaelic Storm yet. Well, problem solved. Love love love Gaelic Storm.

Enjoy!!

Kristi

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I must've dreamt that I posted this.

30 Day Song Challenge day 08 - a song that you know all the words to: I know all the words to probably hundreds of songs. So, I decided to go with a song that I know all of the words to, because of my Dad. This song always makes me think of him. ☺

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30 Day Song Challenge:day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event Every time I hear this song, it reminds me of having my son. I watched SOOOOO much Charmed when I was pregnant. It's a good memory. ☺

I love this show. It was one of the good ones.

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30 Day Song Challenge day 06 - a song that reminds you of somewhere:Does high school count as "somewhere?" Shout out to all alumni from MHS. You know you remember this song from high school. Moline did have a way with traditions. Oh how I wish I could hand out Off-Awards at work...

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30 Day Song Challenge Day 05 A Song that makes you think of someone: I picked this song because it always and forever reminds me of my friend Curt Matthew. We were super close throughout high school and for some time after. Then I screwed everything up like I always do. I've lost him being in my life but I still miss him all the time. He will forever be in my heart.

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30 Day Song Challenge day 04 - a song that makes you sad: I'm not sure if sad is the right word, but for some reason this song always makes me pause and think. Which generally makes me sad. Plus it's a great song!!

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30 day Song Challenge Day 03- A song that makes you happy. There are probably thousands of songs that make me smile and therefore make me happy. However, I went the simplest way and picked the song on my iTunes with the most plays currently. I think you may be surprised...or perhaps not. ☺

30 day song challenge say 03 a song that makes you happy.

I chose Video Killed the Radio Star by Pentatonix... When I get back on a computer I'll add the link.

Love ya

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Okay, what the hell am I eating that is making me so sick every freaking day. I watch every single thing thing I eat and I swear the past few days I've been sick like all the time. Constant bloating... Grrrrrr