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Happy New Year!!! Here's to a fantastic 2013!!!!!

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So, we all know I'm freaked out about losing my hair. I have a pretty noticeable receding hairline that seemed to me just popped out of nowhere.

Obviously a better looking, healthier me is on the menu this coming year so I thought I'd share on here that for one month I am not going to blow dry my hair. Haha that probably sounds silly to some propel. However, I've done lots and lots of research and one of the things they say to do to instill healthier hair is less heat damage. Well, I ALWAYS blow my hair dry after I wash it because the alternative is hideously awful hair.

I've observed two people I know with OUTSTANDING hair health my mother Andy friend Ness. They rarely if EVER blow dry their hair. So, I decided I'd give it a try and see what happens. That's how I'm doing everything this year I think.

So today was the first day of no blow dryer, hair looks really flat and blah but could be worse.

This should be interesting...
K

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I missed last night so just a quick note this morning.

I'm currently in the midst of a make-up, skin care, body care, hair care obsession. I think taking better care of myself as one of my goals this year has become make-up and prestige care central. I mean I see it and I want it. Or I see it and I want to try it. It's kind of funny.


But just as a quick note, I let the salesgirl at Ulta talk me into buying the Benefit "They're Real" Mascara...let me just tell you something it is AMAZING. I mean its fantastically amazing. It really separates and makes my lashes so pretty and long.

This is what it looks like.

This is truly what it does!!!!! I'm not joking. It's amazing. Soooo just as my quick note of the day. Go buy this. It's pricey, yes. But what prestige cosmetics arent? Anyhow, I love it and will continue to use it.


Cheers,
Kristi

347

My random thought of the day: I've just realized I spend entirely too much time alone. If I were to ever need an alibi, I would be screwed. I'm totally the schmuck who says ' Oh, I was at home, alone.' I mean seriously, I'm so lame. hahah


I've basically been watching a Castle marathon lately. Got all 4 seasons and so I've just been watching from the beginning all over again. LOVE LOVE LOVE that show.

Nathan Fillion? Amazing. Stana Katic? I WANT to be her. Peripherals? Just as great.


I remember Nathan from old episodes of Buffy. He's sexy and yet the equivalent of the girl next door, so he's "boy next door, tall and handsome. I also loved him in Firefly Fantastic show and so incredibly sad it was cancelled. If you haven't seen Castle, you should give it a chance. Ryan and Esposito are great comic relief as well as, sideline story. Martha (Castle's Mom) and Alexis (Castle's daughter) are great to show the softer more adult side of Castle. It's always interesting to me the way Alexis unknowingly  helps Castle with his theories.
mmmmmm yummy in this one!!

Anyhow, my whole point here is rather nonexistent. Suffice it to say you should give Castle a chance if you haven't already.











Cheers!!

Kristi

348

I'm wondering if its possible to literally be falling apart piece by piece? I know 30 really freaked me out so perhaps it's just all mental?

I was talking to a friend of mine today about my goals for the new tyear of Kristi.

One thing I really want to do is take better care of myself. I spent the last year figuring out a lot of things that made me ill. Now I want to find things I can use to assist in the new and improved life of Kristi. I've almost, not quite, but almost been fully assimilated into organic.

I know there are many products out there to assist with some of the issues I have. So, it's time to test them out. Perhaps this years blog posts will be a whole bunch of product reviews.

Cheers,
Kristi

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I think with the looming deadline of 30 NOT on the horizon anymore, I've become extremely derelict in my duties. I barely write here every night. I suppose I should've seen it coming.

What don't you already know about me? What don't I already know about myself? I know that I wish I could be better off. I know that I want to make more money, do something interesting and really change my life. The problem is, it's hard to do that.

I already made a LOT of big changes last year and the idea of changing a million more things is rather daunting. I'm not really feeling it at all actually. hahah

So, I guess I'll continue to write a little note to myself here every time I think of it, with the hopes that I write something every day. Maybe the problem is I haven't made a promise to myself yet...

Perhaps the thing to do is keep it slack until the new year. Let myself graze a little until I have a clear picture of exactly what I need to do.

I'll keep you posted!

K

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It's Christmas. As I'm writing this the clock is slowly ticking to midnight on Christmas Eve. We've already done presents for the most part. Wyatt has been to his Dad's and my family had their Christmas early for the first time in over 30 years.

It's been the weirdest holiday season I think I've ever encountered. I don't really know what the deal is, but I'm hoping it was just some sort of minor fluke. I've been just bah humbug the whole season.

I just want Wyatt to be happy and well, he seems pretty damn happy. So, I'm gonna say it's fine. Is it sad that I really wanted a better Christmas? I'm ALWAYs disappointed. It's really depressing.

I put all that thought into presents and well, I just get the shaft. This is exactly why I buy everything for myself that I want. lol So with that said. I realize that is not what Christmas is about, I know that. However, I'm speaking in general about Christmas.

I give up. Sooo...

Merry Christmas to all, and to all a Good Nite.

K

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So, my brother took me to see a show for my birthday at Circa 21. This isn't the best picture, but it will have to suffice.

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I have been in this ridiculously angry mood lately. I've been frustrated and annoyed and just all around disappointed in pretty much everything.

I don't know that I can explain it. I just have this bah humbug attitude. I want too many things I can't realistically have and I realistically need things I don't want. It's a quandry.

So, what should I do to get out of it? Why do I have such a hard time saying no? I've become ridiculously passive aggressive. UGH

Well, I'm not sure what this next year is going to bring. I don't even know if I have a goal this go-around, but I do have desires, hopes and needs. It's time I figured out a way to get all of them.


WITHOUT FEELING BAD!


Lots of Love,
Kristi

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Well, I'm not feeling my best. My skin is breaking out something fierce and that is something it hasn't done in forever.

I mean like serious breakout mode. Whiteheads, blackheads, red spits and even cystic acne. My face hurts. My body doing something cuz my face is awful, my mouth has tons of those swollen taste buds, roof of my mouth is killing me.

I say bah humbug!!

I am tired of being able to fix things for other people and never for myself.

Btw I think I finally understand retail therapy. It makes me smile. Wish I had so much more money.

Sorry for the ramblings

K

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I actually picked up and read one of my books tonight. I am hoping that this means my drought is over. I cannot explain why I've stopped reading for so long. I mean I've listened to my audiobooks but not read a real book in forever.

I miss it.

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And I'm already slacking. I almost feel a sense of anti climax. I didn't quite reach my goal and purpose for my year of change so I'm beating myself up a bit.

Perhaps I'm just in the midst of the birthday blues or the holiday blues, you never can tell.

Regardless, I still have 35 more pounds to lose before October 5, 2013. So I do have a goal this year. I also have some medical things I'd like to take care of this year.

So, onward ho!

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this is a sad sad state of affairs. I woke up this morning with the screaming, AWFUL, HORRIBLE pain in my ear again. I don't know what the deal is with my body but I want it to stop right now.

Listen up Emperor of the Universe. I have NOT, repeat NOT gone through hell this year to get my body and my life moving in the right direction just to have you decide that I'm still going to be miserable. Take the damn pain away. I am doing so many things to get better. I have made leaps and bounds of progress.

I will NOT  let this year be the year of sickness like last year was.


K

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There's nothing quite like disappointment. When you have expectations more often than not people let you down.

I need to lower mine. I'm always let down and just sad.

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Today has been filled with weird emotions. I bawled like a little baby watching Parenthood. Holy crap, if you ever need something to make you cry, serioulsy just watch an episode. I think I've mentioned on here before that I'd love to be a Braverman. That show is brilliant. It's written well, and honestly it's just amazing.


Moving on, I feel ...off. I've had more than one person ask me if I feel different. It's a pretty common question after you turn thirty. However, normally people say "no" or "not really" Me, however? I feel completely different. I can actually feel a shift in my whole being. It's bizarre. I can honestly say I don't like it.

In fact, i hate it. I feel a shift in what I'm thinking, how i"m feeling and in what I'm going to do. I'm still me, and I know this couple of years is about searching. I just don't know that I like what I'm finding. Someone once told me that you think your twenties are all about finding yourself, but what you really do in your twenties is mess everything up and make mistakes. It's your 30's that are about finding yourself and what you're going to be. Maybe that will be the case for me.

K

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Sometimes being reminded of something just makes you want to bawl like a little baby.

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I can't decide exactly how I'm going to handle the next 365 days, but I'm hoping I'll get an epiphany soon.

I'll keep you informed.

Lots of Love,
Kristi

Happy Birthday

3 minutes in...

Happy Birthday to me...Happy Birthday to me...Happy Birthday dear meeeeeee....Happy Birthday to me.

And many more.....

0-DDay

AAAAAAAaaaand in 1hour and 58 minutes I will officially be 30 years old. I will have been writing in this blog for one year. I honestly can't believe that I've been doing this for a year. It's sooo crazy to me. I just can't believe how fast time goes by.

I spent the last year of my twenties attempting to make some important changes in my life, figuring out what I'm going to do and just all around trying to decide who I'm going to be. I had ups I had downs. I was sick a lot. It's just been all-around strange and trying year.


Let me just get the statistics out of the way.


December 11th, 2011:
Weight: 266
Up to 5 Mt. Dews per day
Eating whatever whenever and sick all the time

December 11th 2012:
Weight: 237.8 (so says the scale I just weighed myself on)
No Mt. Dew at ALL not for over 9 months
No Gluten at all!!
Eating more veggies and fruits.
Drinking Water


So, I've lost a grand total of 28. 2 pounds in 12 months. Not where I wanted to be. I missed my goal of 30 by 1.8lbs. Honestly, it's like a little joke. Stupid Kristi couldnt try a little harder for a few weeks to meet that goal. hahah Oh well, I'm pretty damn close so I'm goign to take it.

I was thinking I'd post all my measurements as well, but I've lost them for the moment. Perhaps I'll do a birthday post tomorrow.

Anyhow here is what I looked like last year and today.

I'm just not as ready as I thought I'd be. I'm feeling blah and well, i've definitely got the birthday blues.

I'm going to keep going with this. Onward and upward. Still going to be writing in here every day.


Lots of love,
Kristi

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There are 24 hours until my birthday. 24 hours and a couple minutes to be fair.

What is the next 365 going to bring? What is REALLY happening? Argghhhhhhh all craziness!!!

I've totally and completely slacked this last week, and I really wanted to do better. Ah well. I have intentions to at least post about the year end review tomorrow night as midnight approaches and my twenties end.


Cheers,
Kristi

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ARRRGGGHHH I can't believe this last couple of days I've just completely slacked off here. I mean seriously? hahah I've been trying hard all year and I think the misery and craziness of my birthday has just been pulling me down into crazytown.

I've got pretty much nothing to share. Other than, I made a crazy roadtrip at 8:30pm last night to Peoria to get some wine. I dragged my friend Nessa along. Why you ask? Because I'm crazy. :)


But it's FANTASTIC wine!!!!


If you are anywhere need Peoria, IL. You HAVE to check out this wine. It's amazing!!! Every single flavor has a smooth finish and a fantastic roundness to it.


LOVE LOVE LOVED It!!!

Cheers,
Kristi

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Well I'm obviously slacking since I'm down to the wire here. I don't know that I have a whole lot of insight or information to share.

I'm still composing my birthday night post in my head.

So, I'll leave you with another pic to suffice tonight.


Lots of Love,
Kristi

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Ugh!!! Note to self: when you don't eat all day then gorge you will make yourself unbelievably sick.

Try to remember that Kristi.

5 days...

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Aaaaand another one.

Only one week folks from today. I'm getting my stats ready for you.


Lots of love,
Kristi

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Just wanted to share one of the pics :)

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Well, I got a little distracted last night so I forgot to post. Decided that today I was going to have my friend Genessa take some pictures of Wyatt and myself.

I HATE being in front of the camera, but really need to start having some pictures showing that I exist.

I will add another post a little later  once they are edited.  :)


Cheers,
Kristi