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I attempted to make orange cream cupcakes today. They turned out amazing!!! Attaching a picture. But it won't let me. I'll try tomorrow.

Here's that picture...

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I feel like there are a lot of things happening in the universe right now. I feel like I'm on a precipice waiting for the voice of God or something. What's happening? Is it this new diet? Is it because I'm fastly approaching 30? What IS IT universe?! Seriously what is really going on?

I thought I'd be feeling better by now, or at least be smaller. I beginning to think that this is going to be wayyyyy to hard to handle. :(

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It's days like today that I don't think I have a gluten problem and I think it must be something else. Seriously? I've spent a gazillion dollars this past weekend on GF products and trying to accept the fact that I have a gluten intolerance. Then today, I'm super careful, I made supper with gfree pasta, gfree soy sauce, gfree teriyaki sauce, sesame oil, and rice wine vinegar. WHAT made me bloated? About 15 minutes after eating I was so tired I literally had to lay down and fell asleep on the couch? WTF? What is my body's deal?

I just don't understand it. Am I really gluten intolerant or is my body just a piece of shit? you be the judge.

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I swear I thought I posted something yesterday but apparently I didn't. Spent a lot of money this weekend on crap. Finally made those cupcakes....and the verdict is they aren't the best cupcakes I've ever had. I gotta figure out a better way. Guess I'm still learning. However, I had that cupcake and a whole pan of gfree pasta last night and wasnt sick. So I dunno. I'm really starting to hate where I live. These new people moved in and they are ruining everything. And we've got pot smokers. Ghetto ass freaking people and it's just ridiculous. And of course Nathan isn't going to do anything about it. This is the guy who can't ever do what he says he's going to do. I'm holding his rent hostage until I get my fridge. That's what I've decided. Anyhow, my whole point is that I'm depressed about these crappy people in my house. I used to love this place and now I am just hating it. Blah

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Had a long long talk with my sis Melo today. She was very encouraging and supportive of this whole gluten thing. Apparently I've got to get it all out of my system before I'll actually feel better.


Here's hoping

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Still feeling sick yet AGAIN today. This throat thing, and then... I havent had anything with gluten and yet, bloat central. What is REALLY going on? I mean seriously? Am I gluten intolerant or not? Should I just keep eating whatever I want and say screw it? UGH I hate that I am no 100% certain I didnt make all this shit up in my head.

I just want to feel better. I just want to be healthier. I just want my damn purpose back!!!!!!

I'm sticking out the whole gluten thing for one month. From 02/22/12 through 03/22/12. I am going to be diligent about checking labels, about watching what I eat and about seriously giving the whole gluten-free idea a try.

Keep your fingers crossed.

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Made it through another day. I seem to be fighting more and more with Wyatt lately. I definitely need to stop that. I'm just so tired of him not wanting to listen. It's sooooo annoying.

I keep having second thoughts about this whole gluten thing. I mean, I know the doctor agreed and definitely said I have a problem, but seriously? How could I NOT have noticed something like this after all this time?

UGH and the one person i thought for sure would be behind me 100%, is being all weird about it.

MY MOM?!?! I know right? She says I'm imagining things, but I think it just weirds her out.

Sooooo.... I'm hoping to make something good this weekend.

cupcakes!!! Ever since this whole gluten thing came up, I've been wanting somethign sweet, cuz for the most part I cant have it.

gonna try my best.


Love Yas,
Kristi

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I'm still in denial. Clearly this is a human epidemic. I try to tell the truth, and people don't hear it. I try to change my life and I get lost on the way.

I just want to wake up one day and be miraculously better. Can that please happen? Thanks and good bye.

K

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I hate this gluten thing. Seriously, it's in everything. Its like the silent assassin. I feel like I can't catch a break. I'm so over it right now and I want a damn slice of bread.

Blah

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I'm sad today. Nothing for me. Emotions are just extortion.

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Ooops forgot last night. Weird day. I think I need a vacation from my job. I'm staying to resent work.

More later

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Well, there you have it folks. Already into the 200's. Had my doctor's visit today and she confirmed the gluten intolerance. So, it's off some of my favorite things for awhile. I'm hoping in the grand scheme of things that this will just continue to help me get healthy.

I know I'm slow moving and clearly losing 10 pounds in over two months is nothing to jump for joy about, but I'm going to take the loss and keep on trucking.

Time to stock up on getting healthy. ☺

Lots of Love,
Kristi

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Ummmmm wow I'm already at 300? That's pretty crazy. I think I might actually be starting to feel things being different. Obviously some of the things in my life are the same. I'm still me, but I have been so good about the mountain dew and since the whole gluten thing came up I've been really good about that too. I'm not seeing a light at the end of a tunnel, but I think my desires are catching up with my body and my brain. I'm going to the doctor tomorrow for my scheduled well visit so we can discuss in detail all my issues. I'm hoping a happy outcome. I want to be on the same page as my doctor. I want to get through all of this with her. Here's to changing your life one baby step at a time. Lots of Love, Kristi

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Kink in my neck. Annoyance in my head. Heartache in my soul. What a day. Valentine's day sucks. Really it does. I've never had a good one and I doubt very much that I ever will. Moving right along.....

I need to find some sweets that taste good and are gluten free.

That's all for today. Hate V-day!!

Kristi

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I hate it when I go through these periods of time when I know that I should just keep my mouth shut and yet I am compelled to share with people anyways. How many times have you learned Kristi? Just keep it all to yourself and you wont have problems.

I can't wait for Saturday. I wanna look in the person's eyes and see if there's something there.

Keep you posted.

K

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Why do I have these terrible headaches? Why do I constantly post about being in pain? Why am I such a complainer? Seriously, I"M even sick of listening to me. But I swear I have nothing else to write about. It's depressing. I have issues.

I've completely convinced myself that I need to be single, and there are a LOT of reasons for that. Oh so many reasons that I can't even go into. It's just every once in awhile I get this feeling...it's a feeling of loss and absence. It makes me sad. I had that feeling this weekend. Friday I saw someone that I never really thought would give me THAT feeling, and yet...it did. Now it's funny because he totally was like "things aren't going to be weird between us are they? You don't want anything more from me right?" lol he's a friend and I adore him, we always have that crazy flirt thing going on but it's progressed past that point now. My answer has always been, you have nothing to worry about cuz I'm going to be single forever. I am clearly not what he's looking for in a serious relationship and I am not even looking for a serious relationship, but.... That's right folks there is a but, our hands fit.

I'm such a bizarre person, but that is something I notice. In the past I've been with guys whose hand I can't comfortably hold. It is uncomfortable and just doesn't mesh. This guy? His hands fit almost perfect with mine. Weird right? Oh well. I'm sure I'll get over it. I always do. I get these waves of whatever and then I'm back to normal. I just need the normal to come sooner than usual. I don't like feeling like this.

So, it's been over 2 months now that I've been in a "Get Kristi Healthy" frame of mind. I don't feel healthier. Mostly because I've been nothing but sick the whole time, but I've gone 2 months now with 2 mt dews or less per day. I've discovered the possibility of a gluten intolerance. I've actively considered dieting and changing what I eat. I started eating Organic Eggs. The results are very very small and to be honest almost insignificant, but here they are.

Lost 10 lbs
Lost 3" around my waist. I keep thinking that it's just a misread of the tape measure, but what the hell, I'm going to put it on here and that way I have it to reference at a later date.

Okay peeps have fabulous day.

Lots of Love,
Kristi

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I think I'm at an impasse. I love the place I live, but I'm officially fed up with crap. Little things keep adding up more and more. Its frustrating and I hate stupid people. Rude, immoral, assholes who were brought up wrong with no manners.

I'm sick and tired of it.

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Well I had my review and it went well. Just wish I could've got more money. Sigh

Tonite I am hanging out with one of my best friends before he treks off to Seattle to change his life. Soon melissa will follow. I feel like I'm never going to see him again. Its making me sad. Booooooooooo

He's one of my absolute favorite people in the world. He never fails to make me laugh or smile. I am totally going to miss him. Hope we have a good night.

Love you all,

Kristi

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Ants. Everywhere. This day sucks. Ugh I'm so annoyed.

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Xavier Kristian Phillip Morris, born February 8th 2012 9lbs 1.2oz 21" long. That is what happened today. He's an adorable chunky little monkey. My new nephew.

Ate a piece of pizza today and I've been paying for it ever since. :( boooo


Love Y'all.
Kristi

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Almost all our desires, when examined, contain something too shameful to reveal -Victor Hugo

What does this say to you? To me it says, of course, that those things we desire and those deep dark secrets we keep, would be considered scandalous. Shameful. I am absolutely 100% guilty of this truth. However, sometimes...that dark desire....is soooooooooooooo good. 

Happy Tuesday!!!

Kristi Lynn

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There are 309 days left until December 11,2012. So far not much has changed. I've been trying pretty hard to change my life. However, I've been sick ever since I had this Godforsaken revelation and I feel like it's all this big cosmic joke. WTF!!!!!

I want to be healthy and have an actual shot at this dammit. Can we please cut to the part where I actually feel better?

Thank You and Good-Nite
K

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Giant's win. My throat hurts. Blah. I want to be happier.

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I resisted temptation today.trying to be gluten free.

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Okie doke, trying to be gluten free again. Let's see if I feel better. This week I have had a song stuck in my head almost every day. So I'm posting it here. Remember this Kristi. :)

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I've been in such a strange mood lately. I don't want to claim this whole gluten thing so I've been pretending it doesn't exist. And yet every time I eat something with gluten in it, I get sick. I am apparently a glutton for punishment. I want to change my life. I'm going to change my life. This is my year dammit. I will be healthier by December 11,2012!! I'm still truckin'. More tomorrow. K

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BTW!!!!this day sucks. Going to bed early.Blah