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Avengers is SUCH A GREAT MOVIE!

Just wanted to share.

73 & 72

My friend and her husband were in a bad ATV accident Friday night early Saturday Morning. The rhino flipped over on top of her and her husband.

She has 43 staples in her head and a pretty banged up arm.

Her husband basically shattered his arm.

I cannot say this enough, please please do not drink and drive. Please do not operate recreational vehicles without proper attire. It's insanity.

She is happy to be be alive and I believe lucky to be alive.

Kiss your loved ones, take that second to acknowledge your life and those that matter to you.

K

74

I was jumbled last night and didnt feel good so I forgot to post.

I got pulled over for not having currents tags on my car. Sooooo my message today is to make sure you get those before they are completely expired.


Cheers and G'day.


I'll hopefully be writing more later.

75

Okay Gluten Free friends!!!!

I've got a bit of a Breaking News NEWSFLASH!!!!

I've discovered some good gluten free bread!!!!

Yes, you heard that right. Gluten Free, good and bread all in the same sentence!!


Best gluten free bread so far!! The baguettes, which come in a two pack at my local Hy-Vee, are really very good.




I just made my first sandwich with them. I cut one of the baguettes in half, put the extra back in an airtight package in the fridge and heated the remaining half in a 400 degree over for 5 minutes.

It was sweet, bready goodness. I made a ham sandwich with some real butter and lettuce. I truly enjoyed it. Other things I've tried, I basically convince myself it tastes good when it really doesn't.

This actually tastes good. I could see myself making bruschetta with this as well. So, I'm kinda stoked.

So, thanks Schar, I am doing a non-standard, somewhat off-kilter review of almost all your products and so far I'm not disappointed. My sister usually goes with me to help me on my gluten way, and she likes the way this brand looks as well. She doesn't necessarily taste test the things, but she gets a full review from me.

The brand's packaging is aesthetically pleasing as well. ( Or so she always tells me ☺)


Cheers,
Kristi

Happy Bread Eating my Gluten-Free Compatriots!!!!

76

I hate expectations. I have outlandish ones, but I HATE EXPECTATIONS... Ugh so annoying

77

I've really been in the mood to research getting healthier. The journey of 2012 has been interesting. Full of self-discovery and hooey. hahah I don't really have anything else to call it.

I like to believe that I can trust myself and my gut instincts. A lot of things I've read give just that impression of HOOEY, I tend to stray from those ideas. a friend of mine said the truth, "I think there is probably some logic to the basic premise of eating healthier will make you healthier."

That's just it, isnt it? If you actually treat your body like a temple then doesn't it correlate that the temple will be stronger? That you will be taken care of as a well-cared for temple?


I know I know, I'm crazy and what proof do i have to offer that I'll be living this life? I can only say that I hope in the next few years that I'll change my life, and the life of my son.


:)

Cheers,
Kristi

78

My how time flies. I do believe that everything happens for a reason. Ive had to believe that with everything that has gone on in my life.

I also believe in karma, which is funny because I'm pretty sure that's why te bad things have happened.

I was told once that we all grieve our twenties when really we should be thankful because we spend our twenties searching for things we don't find until our thirties.

I dunno it stuck with me. So, I guess I'm hoping my life changes a whole lot on the next few years.

Cheers,
Kristi

80

I've had the past on my mind a LOT lately. Can't quite seem to shake the memories I thought I'd long forgotten.

I can't decide if my subconscious is slowly "flashing" my life before my eyes because I'm not going to be around soon and so I'm remembering a lot of things I actually wish I could forget. Or perhaps my heart and mind are more in synch than I thought and the approach of D-Day 2012 is really getting in there and playing tricks with my mind.

All year I've done nothing but talk about how much I want to change my life and here I am stuck in the same spot, but at the same time perhaps I'm not stuck.

I think a lot of things I've learned are that it's a state of mind as well as its a physical change. I've convinced myself that I don't need Mt Dew, and I know that is always my fallback answer, but the truth is it was VERY hard for me to give that up, and yet I did it.

Soooooooooo I've convinced myself that I like salad, even though in reality I can't stand them. So, I'l eat them. I am currently taking a hiatus from candy as well. It's halloween time and I've really been craving sweets lately, but NO CANDY!!!


So, who knows. Perhaps 2012 will actually be the complete and total year of change for me after all.


Love,
Kristi

I know NO ONE is reading this, but just to be on the safe side. HELLO Random viewers!!!!

81

I am soooo tired.

Had horrible nightmares last night. I woke up crying and scared.

I need a vacation..


K

82

Life could be a changing.

I need a good positive change.

Hmmmm

83

Missed a day. I'm sure no one is surprised.

Gonna be broke for awhile. Gotta figure out what to do.


I can do this!!!!

84

Ugh it's days like today that make me wish I didn't care.

86 & 85

Apparently I forgot to post last night. Had Wyatt's little birthday gathering at my Gramma's. I think I was just distracted. I was thinking about something today and this is what came out of my mouth. It's about weight loss vs. weight gain and the constant struggle to modify both.

"Well, it's kind hard to explain because for the most part, extra weight gain is gradual. It's like over a period of 5 years. Then you wake up one day and realize that you've gained 30 pounds, or 50 or you wake up 8 years later and realize you've gained 100.

A lot of people don't really understand this, or obesity or just being overweight. They assume it's all the person's fault and I would agree that we choose what we put in our mouths and all that, but for some people weight gain isn't even an option and they can eat whatever they want. It's weird.

Anyhow, my whole point is that a lot of times weight gain is gradual and over a long period of time, so to my way of thinking the loss should be gradual as well. In order to do it right and healthy you have to monitor what you are doing.

I know that sometimes people go on diets, or whatever and they lose a LOT of weight really fast. Some of those people keep it off and keep it off well, most however struggle with ballooning. Humans like instant gratification and that's a HUGE part of our problem. But seriously it took you 30 years to get where you're at, you have to give your body some time to adjust and accommodate."


In essence what I was trying to say here, and what I think I was doing is preaching to myself. Weight gain isn't instantaneous in MOST cases. I cannot say that for all because there are many, many exceptions to that rule. However, if you've beeen overweight all of your life and you are say...33. You've been gradually adding that weight for 33 years. So to imagine that you will lose it in a healthy way in less than 1 year, is just unrealistic. It's also unhealthy.

Now, what do I know about being healthy? To be honest, not a whole damn lot. So, really no one should listen to me at all. I can only tell you what my opinion and my experience has been.


Every single person is different and reacts difterently to different things. Just listen to your body, mind and heart when you make a decision to attempt to change your life. Keep a couple of things in mind.

1. You ARE stronger than you think. You can give up that soda or cookies or whatever your vice is.
2. You SHOULD discuss it with your doctor and discuss what are your hopes and goals. The doctor (PCP) is a great resource for many different reasons.
3. No one can force you to get healthy, quit doing something, or change your habits. I learned the seriously hard way that it always has to be YOUR choice or you wont be committed to it.

Anyhow, just my thoughts for today.


Kristi

87

Can I please win the lottery? I'd appreciate it.

Thanks so much!

Kristi

88

Today is Wyatt's birthday. 8 years ago today at exactly 5:17am my baby was born. Oh how the times have changed. Oh how things are different. It's funny how I thought things were going to be, and in reality how they've actually turned out.

Life goes on and changes and evolves and devolves. I wouldn't really say it's always evolving because so many things point toward going back or backward.

Suffice it to say that my son turns 8 today and I am getting very very old.

For him and for me I need to really make changing my life a big focus. I seriously need to consider my options here. Possibility of being pre-diabetic is not something I want to have on the table. I've made this many changes and this many leaps. I think it's time to make a few more.


Cheers,
Kristi

89

Got my blood test results today. I might be prediabetic. It's so depressing.

I thought I did everything right. I thought that by being healthier this year I would actually change my life.
Turns out that my glucose actually went up one point, and my good cholesterol went down 10 points!

I mean what the hell is that!?!?

So, what are my options here? I guess I need to try harder. So frustrated.

I don't know if I should just try another experiment or what? Month without sugar? Month without sweets? What do I do?

I already knew that I wasn't healthy I just thought it would be better. Makes me sad.

90-Mt Dew

Just realized today that I've been Mt.Dew free since May 9, 2012. Over 4 months of NO Mt.Dew in this system of mine.

That's kinda crazy!!!

91, 90

Well, I skipped a day. Who's surprised? Anyone? Oh that's right no one is reading. Okay well good, I skipped a day because once again I forgot.

Couple things...I feel SOOO fat today it's kind of ridiculous. I can't hardly stand it. I wish this would all stop. I'm not eating unhealthy. I'm trying my damnedest actually to BE healthier.

booooooooooooooooooooo


Another thing, I want to feel BETTER. I don't have my car back yet, could've had it today, but they still needed to do something with the back door. So, I'll have my car back tomorrow.

It's not the same. It looks like it was hit. Makes me sad. Soooo moving on. In an attempt to change myself even more, i've been trying some new hairstyles. Curls and such, I'm now going to attempt a sock bun...not sure when but I will be attempting it.

Here's a link:

http://pinterest.com/pin/123497214752223644/

92-2:Skin Regiment Intrigue

Just remembered I hadn't posted this link from the other day. Everyone should give this a try!!!

The person who wrote this article really put a lot of trouble into it. I LOVE the way its been making my skin feel.


click here

93,92

Closer and closer the day approaches. Closer and closer and closer.....I can actually feel 30 now. I'm no longer IN my twenties. I can feel that tension and oldness as the time passes.

I can't believe how fast the year has gone by. I started this blog just to keep track, and to try to keep a promise to myself. Well, the picture you see here shows I have indeed, NOT cut my hair. Holy CROW is it long.

I did give up Mt Dew, I lost a few pounds. I dunno, was it worth it? Have I accomplished enough to actually say I've accomplished something? Have I changed at all? I've had a few epiphanies along the way and they have changed me and the way I think.

I'm actually trying my damnedest to eat a little better. I definitely can see the benefits of some healthier eating habits. I know that my body is just NOT doing so great and to be honest it's been screaming at me for years to get better. It's funny to me how bad it all really is. I think that's the main reason I avoid the doctor so much, because they always tell me how messed up I am and how it's like a medical miracle that I'm up and about walking around. Honestly Doc, I just deal.

I'm going to this chiropractor now that seems just amazed at how messed up my body is, he remarks on how bad I am all the time and how they maneuvers he does on me are like those they use on old people. I know right? how complimentary is THAT?

Well, anyhow. I feel it creeping up on me. I've been trying really hard this year and I'm starting to feel that is going to have to suffice. I don't think the 30 lb goal is going to happen. I'm  holding steady at 15-20. Here's the deal, I HAVE to lose at least 50 lbs by Ashley's wedding. I absolutely refuse to be her fat friend in those wedding pictures. I cannot handle it if I am forever immortalized in pictures of her wedding day as the fat girl with huge tits. I just can't have it.

Perhaps I'll have to continue this blog into next year. So 365 up to 30 and the first 365 after? I dunno what do you think? Obviously I haven't exactly kept up with this.. I've tried as hard as I can to post every day, but I just forget. I'm terrible with this stuff. I have so many people telling me that I should be a write but the truth is I'm better at speeches. lol

Anyhow,  I'm done for today. Sorry again for lacking the ability to write in here every day.

Side Note: I've been doing the honey thing for a week and it has definitely made my skin softer. I've been having my friend Ashley try it too and she reports softer skin, not less breakouts yet, but definite softer skin. I'll keep you posted.


Cheers,
Kristi

97, 96,95,94

Went to Chicago forgot to post. I really had a decent time. I enjoy sharing that stuff with my son. I hope some day he will see the world :)

98

Driving around in a 2012 Suburban. SOOO crazy. It actually makes me want to buy a HUGE truck or something.

I'm bigger than everyone else, and really it's pretty freakin' cool. I told my Dad it's kind of like driving a Semi. hahah

I miss my car being in good shape. I'm more worried than I can say that I'm going to get it back and it's going to be all wrong. It's not going to be how it was before. It's just going to be awful. I've been so mad about this whole situation and I feel like I have every right to be. It really depresses me that it wont ever be the same again. I am paying SOOO much money for this car it breaks my heart to think that I'll be paying for it another 4 years and it'll be not worth it.

So, for the first time in my life, I may actually consider trading in my vehicle. Probably wont be able to as my credit blows massive chunks, but oh well right?


Wyatt's birthday trip is this coming Saturday and I have literally NO money. I'm broke, I'm mad and I dont' want to be in a BAD mood for his trip.

It NEEDS to go well. It needs to be a good day with little to no yelling. I just want to enjoy myself.


Sigh

k

99

Sick of it

100

It's funny to me, for some reason, that my 100 days falls on Labor Day. Perhaps because I've been "laboring" all year to get better. Or because it's been a labor to get this far.

I forgot to mention that I've started a skin care regimen. I'm going to give it a two week trial. I don't have the link available right here but when I get on my computer I'll add it.

It's raw honey. Apparently it has a million antibiotic properties. Also you can add baking soda and powdered oats.

So far it makes my skin feel really good.

I'll keep you informed

101

People are idiots. Did you know that? I'm sorry if you're offended by that statement and consider yourself to be in the "people" category.

I know and firmly believe that everyone has their own opinion. I also know that I tend to be a very passionate person about my own ideas and views. ( Or at least, that's what I've been told) :)

I just wish that as a general rule people would think before they speak. They annoy me.

I gained 5 lbs. Five Freaking LBS. What the hell is wrong with me that I cant seem to get  healthy? I've got 100 days left of this year, OH HOW FAST the time has gone. I've accomplished what could be considered a LOT but in reality I still really feel like a failure. I just want to be smaller and prettier and healthier. I want to have no gray/white hairs, no wrinkles and less cellulite. I think it's a perfectly reasonable request to have these things.

I put my self and my life on  hold to do what I thought was right at the time, and I've been stuck in a vortex of doubt, worry, stress and hazy ideas ever since. I thought that making this statement would bring me back into a reality of Kristi and perhaps I'd find a little bit more of myself this year and what I actually want to do with my life.

For some reason, I'm still feeling blah about everything. Now it almost seems like things are worse. I just keep wanting more and more with no ideas on how to get them, or with any acceptance of what I already DO have.

Just as a reminder to myself:

I can see. Maybe my eyes hurt and I complain, but I can read what I'm typing. I can see my son's face when I look at him. Not everyone is so lucky.

I have a roof over my head.

I have a car.

It runs.

I have a job.

I have food in my house, might not be exactly what I want, and it might not even taste all that great, but there's food. There's something that I can cook and put in my mouth to fill my belly.

I can hear. Without music and the ability to hear it, I think my life would be over.

I have the most wonderful family anyone could ask for. If I didnt see or speak to my mom every single day, I wouldn't know how to live my life.

I know that if I start to fall, I have a place to go where someone will not only CATCH me, they will carry me if I need them to do so.

My son gets enough food. More than actually.

I have great toys and a few really great friends. I'm good with that only adding up on one hand.

I know what I need to do to get my life back on track here people, I think it's just the missteps along the way that are holding me up.  I need to give up one certain bad habit and I just CANT seem to do it. I need to stop eating candy or anything of the sort. Chocolate is NOT good for you. Not in the excess that I always seem to end up eating it anyways.

KRISTI!! Pay attention here. You NEED to do something. 5lb gain is unacceptable. If you gain one more pound, you're most likely going to spiral into the abyss of depression that you can NOT afford to spiral into. GET HEALTHY. Figure it out for God's sake.

With Love,
Kristi

102

Ugh I hate my karma.

Love Adele.
Love my sister.
Love my Ashley.

Blah