11

Well...Strawberry Chocolate Wine from Kickapoo Creek Winery is DELICIOUS.

I"m finally in the mood for Christmas Music.

Soooooooo I'm gonna share the amazing talent, once again, of Pentatonix.

Enjoy the fantastic talent of this group. I know I do.





Lots of Love,
Kristi

12

Not sure exactly what is going on, but I have been sooo bloated lately. It's been almost a year that I've cut gluten out and I'm seriously getting really good at staying away from it and not getting accidentally glutened.

However, in the past couple of weeks, every single time I eat something I feel sick and bloaty. GRRRRR..... Just when you think you've got something all figured out? BAM Emperor of the Universe throws in a wrench.

Happy Hump Day!!

K

13

Just in case you didn't know, it is officially Hot Cocoa season. My sister and I got this huge package of them at Sam's Club. I am totally and completely in LOVE with the Warm Oatmeal Cookie hot chocolate.

OMG people it is DELICIOUS!!!!!


Just wanted to share. Now, if I can find it to buy on it's own, I totally would. Too bad it isn't available on their website. Needless to say it reminds me of the oatmeal cookies that are frosted. My parents used to give those to us when we were kids. Awww man soooo good!!!!! Mmm MMMM Well done Land of Lakes. Even though I find it weird that its Land of Lakes. hahah





So, yeah, I know it's not "healthy", and I know it's not all natural, but let me tell you something: it's a small bit of heaven, wrapped in comfort and classic. Maybe even a small touch of home. LOVE IT!! Now I need to see if I can get some more. hahah Great gifts too for the holidays.


Happy Tuesday Friends!!

Kristi

14

I believe I've mentioned a few times in the past year that I just can't seem to pick up a book and read. It's like this huge anomaly for me. People who know me, know that I'm a "reader" as they like to put it. The reality is that I just like to escape to other worlds, places, times etc. The best way to do that, is via fiction. I always say that Fiction is the BEST vacation. Worlds we long to visit, worlds we dream about and world's we'd love to help save. What could be better?

So, here I am passionate and crazy about literature, and yet...nothing makes me pick it up anymore. I've been fully assimilated into audiobooks or something. Which, is CRAZY, considering I read sooo much faster than I listen. It's just such an amazing experience to LISTEN to a book read to you. Please don't misunderstand, if the narrator is ghastly, then the audiobook is worthless. However, when you stumble upon someone such as Jim Dale? The possibilities are endless. Or perhaps if you give someone like Susan Ericksen a chance you'll see what I mean.

So, as I sit here and type this out, thinking I had a purpose in this post...I don't really. hahah typical 1am ramblings from Kristi, I guess. Well, what I'm trying to say is that while I haven't picked up a real book and just read through it on my own, I have been discovering more and more the joys of audiobooks and the convenience of being able to do other things while also reading.

There is no one, and I do mean NO SINGLE AUTHOR like Ms. Nora Roberts/J.D. Robb. Her words are memorable, her characters are intriguing and lovable. You want to GO to her worlds. Or at least... I do. I feel like half the things I've learned I learned from reading her books. I know that probably sounds silly, but I swear her books BREATHE sometimes. I've re-read her trilogies no less than 15 times apiece. And the In Death series? If you haven't read it, you should. If you've read it and haven't listened to Susan Ericksen bring it to life? You should do that as well.

There are so many MANY great authors out there, I think Nora just holds my heart. ☺ If you don't like romance...there's alway the Harry Potter series, as J.K. Rowling creates a world that you can almost smell with her brilliance.

Cheers for tonite!! Go read a book...or if you're a busy soul...listen to one!!!


♥
Kristi


I use Audible.com, one of the best purchases I ever made for myself. It immediately syncs with my iTunes account. No muss, no fuss. Just a little tip for those wondering how to go about audiobooks. I definitely suggest NOT getting the CDs, so much more work. Love Audible.  KLH

15

There are these moments when you just have to do a "Face:Palm." As much as we are what we are, there are times when one can forget where they were going and what the original purpose of a journey was meant to be.

Do you know that I started out this little journey of mine with the intention of keeping myself honest. Of making myself accountable for the things I did every day for a year. I definitely stumbled a couple of times throughout the past year with regards to writing every day, but actually I'm pretty proud of myself for attempting and trying to stay true to the whole point.

I had someone randomly comment on one of my short, pithy posts the other day and it was definitely a face:palm moment, because I forget so very often that this is a PUBLIC blog. hahaha I've just been riding along talking to myself for the most part. I do occasionally go back and read the post just because I need a gauge of my emotional state sometimes. I know a few posts back I mentioned that I had become this extremely ridiculous whiner. I was aware of the fact that I am not only extremely hard on myself, but that I've just been in a serious funk. So, with that said, I'm going to post something a little different today. In the spirit of Thanksgiving and as requested by the anonymous poster, I'm going to post a few things I'm thankful for, and a few things I should be proud of, in no particular order.

1. I am so proud of myself for staying away from Mt. Dew for more than 8 months. I used to drink up to 5  bottles of it per day. I would drink Mt.Dew all day and all night. I truly have more willpower than I thought. Yay Me!!

2. I am humbled that a business such as Southern, Wine and Spirits thought my work was good enough to post on their Facebook page. Guess the general consensus is that I am, in fact, good with inanimate objects...The drinks were made my best friend and I just took the shots. :) It was fun.




3. I suppose I should say that I am also proud of myself for making my voice heard. People who know me never would assume that I am actually really nervous and shy about asking superiors, upper management and the like for something that I haven't been offered. I finally got up the balls to speak to my director about my position in teh company and where I truly wanted to go. It was nerve-racking and yet, it all ended well. With her thanking me for bringing this all to her attention. So, yeah, guess I'm a grown-up after all. hahah

4. One thing...I am so very very thankful for not being in this whole thing alone. I tell people all the time that my son is community raised. I say this because he's with me, his dad & stepmom and their hoarde (Wyatt has 6 sisters), my Gramma, my parents. etc etc. I'm thankful and happy and really just so  lucky that Wyatt has all of these people who love him and want to give him their attention and share their lives with him. I try to remind him all the time of how lucky he is, guess I need to start doing that as well.

5. And to end tonight's post...I am so incredibly happy and blessed. So GLAD that I have my best and oldest friend in my life. I'm posting this picture because a) I feel like I look happy and b) it always makes me smile. I tease her all the time that every bad thing I've ever done in my  life was because of her, or because she made me do it. The reality is that she always tries to get me to have fun and not dwell on those things that make me melancholic. So, Thanks Ashley Lynn, Love this picture and love that it's out here forever now.


Cheers to anyone who might be reading. I'm sorry for the drab, debbie downer tone lately. I'm hoping for a new upswing.

Lots of Love,
Kristi

16

I am so close to the date it's really setting in.

I am going to be 30. God that is so painful to say.

I know how many people would think me overreacting is just that, an overreaction.

But I just feel so lacking.

I thought I would be so much more than I am. I guess I'm still a work in progress.

Sad.

K

18 & 17

Soooo we went Black Friday shopping and I had a BLAST!!! So much fun.

Got some good deals and others I wanted but couldn't get.

My bonus was kind of a joke. Sad face.

Soooo close to my birthday. Sigh

Well Happy Thanksgiving and happy almost December.

K

19

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving 2012. Been thinking about this one and really? They have stores open all day tomorrow and Black Friday (I mean Thursday) is starting at like 8pm in tons of places.

I love deals and the idea of getting those deals is kind of exciting, however...I never have the money for this BF shopping anyways and to be honest I HATE the crowds. Most of the time I want to shoot myself.

But...I do wish I had a million dollars. Can I please please pretty please just win the lottery already? I mean is that too much to ask? hahahah

So...I'll be having dinner at my parents house, then my sister and I will be going out into the craziness for at least some cheapo movies at Wally-world. Can't pass up $5-10 Full seasons of our favorite shows. Just sayin' I also have to look for CSI:NY for a friend of mine and wanted to make sure I was checking out any really good deals as well.

The question is: Do I buy myself a second set of Monster Beats headphones? Or do I just deal with not having any until mine come back in? lol Or do I buy myself new boots? I got a little bit of a bonus, sad really when you think about it, but a little bonus and wanted to buy myself something cool. I'm gonna be 30 and we all know my birthday is going to SUCK. For many many many reasons, it will blow massive chunks. I just wanted to consider this bonus a gift to myself. But all I can think of buying is presents for other people.

Sad, I know.

I"ll keep you posted and if I get anything super duper cool, I will definitely share!!


Lots of Love and Hope you have a BEAUTIFUL Thanksgiving tomorrow!!

Kristi

20

Apparently there is something special about me. Did you know?

Wish I knew what it was...

21

Getting closer and closer.

Before you know it, it will be 2013.

22

I'm not going to get out of celebrating this birthday. Perhaps its time I just decide to be happy about it and make the best of what I've got.

What do you think? Stop being melancholy and be excited bout 30? Sigh. I guess them's the breaks anyway, right?


I've been focusing so hard on the negative. ON the things I haven't achieved. With less than amonth left, I need to start focusing on what I HAVE achieved.


Soooooo onward and upward. :)


K

23

It's always always always a shocker to me that someone is actually reading the blather I put out here. I, myself, have done so much internet surfing in my time and found other blogs EXTREMELY useful and informative. I have found them to be well-written, amusing and even sometimes very very talented.

Yet, here I sit with my "blog" and I use quotations because essentially this is my diary. I just happen to be putting it out there for the world to read. And some random strangers have commented. I know that at this point in the first 365 days of change, I've pretty much done nothing but complain, be sick and a little crazy.

I want to apologize yet again to anyone who stumbles upon this blog and thinks that for some strange reason it might actually be beneficial. Initially I had completely intended to share everything I could and to be very informative and just give a real, true to life example of someone attempting to change their lives, and to hold themselves accountable.

I'm so close to my 365 days it's almost vomit-worthy. I'm trying to compile the year into a sort of file so I can post the night before my birthday. I want to at least share with you what I HAVE in fact accomplished.

I'm also going to post a couple pictures of some progress and all that jazz. I just need to get into this a little bit more and not just be a freakin' complainer all the damn time. It's just so hard when I'm sick to think about anything other than being sick. I just want to be healthy. Or rather...healthier.


Okay, maybe more tomorrow.

Kristi

24

Sometimes I wonder about myself. Okay, let me rephrase that, I wonder about myself all the time.

It's so strange to me that the one thing that turned me, that changes me for my entire life, is the one thing I seem to be really really good at. I have an innate talent for subterfuge, I guess. I know that's not really the right word, but it's the one I'm using right now.

Well, just so you know, I've already told you once and now I'm telling you again, Breaking Dawn Part 2 was very good. Not quite everything I wanted to see, but a lot of things I was glad to see.


I've gained 3 lbs by the way, in the last couple of weeks. Depressing. So still some ways away from my goal weight I'd the year and still 45 lbs away from my own personal goal weight for my BFFs wedding. I know damn good and well I can't meet that particular goal, so I'm sticking with 30 per year. I think it's quite reasonable and even possible. If I were to accomplish that, it would put me at 60lbs lost. That's none too shabby.

Please keep your fingers crossed that I can reach these crazy goals. That I continue to stay Gluten Free. That everything turns out well. It's my hope that this year of disaster and of stress and sickness will fold into a much better year next year. If, that is, I actually make it to next year. Sigh

Lots of Love,
Kristi

26, 25

At the Twilight marathon !!!!!


Loving it!!!

Sometimes it's just nice to let go.


K

29,28,27

Hah...29 days and I won't be 29 anymore. Such a sad, sad state of affairs.


So...let's see. I had a decent weekend where I felt needed, helpful and like I did a good job. That's always nice. I helped my girl Nessa at a wedding. I'm the Fix-It girl, remember? So that's what I do. I fix things.


I love feeling like something good comes from the crappy experiences I've had. I swear I should go into business for myself. lol

I'm really cranky lately. My friends are noticing, my famly is noticing and I just can't seem to snap out of it.

I blame the months of being sick. I mean honestly, if I could just catch a break it would be awesome.

Listen up Emperor of the Universe!!! You and I both know I deserve to be feeling better. I do NOT and I repeat do NOT want to make it a tradition for me to be seriously ill on my birthday.

So, let's get on this!!!

K

EDIT:

Apparently I'm losing days yet AGAIN, obviously I've been doing that all year. Apparently per days calc.com I've only got 27 days until December 11,2012.

WTF?

31

One month. I think I'm having a minor melt down. It's all good. Time flies.


Okay special note of the day, if you have not caught on to Nathan Fillion or the genius that is Castle, you should.

Such a great show!!!

Luv yas,
Kristi

32

I am exhausted. I mean I've been so damn tired lately I'd think I was seriously ill.

I'm truly ready to pass out at 10:30pm. I went to sleep last night before 1am. And I woke up at 8am.

Seriously, what is going on?

33

Desperately need to figure out what's wrong with my body.

Sigh guess this week's goal is to give the smoothie theory a try.

I'll keep you updated.

34

Thank you, Emperor of the Universe. Thank you for helping me this one time.

Lots of Love,
Kristi

35

I read back through my last couple if weeks of posts. I'm in a serious state if complaint lately. I was actually annoyed at me reading it. Who in their right mind would ever want to see/read about this stupid girl who is constantly complaining?

I realize that a lot of it is just because I wanted to keep my word to myself to try and post something every day. It's just that I don't want to be viewed as the constant complainer.

My family, and friends for that matter, seem to think smoothies are my magic elixir of life or something. It's kinda funny. They are all adamant that if I start drinking them again I'll ceased to be sick and jump into this hyper healthy state. I'm not convinced. My ear has been throbbing for almost two months. My throat hurts and my allergies are awful. I'm falling apart.

But that sure just sounds like more complaining, doesn't it?

So none of that. I'm going to give it another try. Get some of my fruit from my moms and get back to mixing them up for myself.

I guess we'll see what happens.

Cheers,
Kristi

36

You try and try and try to figure things out, and to turn your life around. Then you break a damn tooth and you're screwed.

What. The. Fuck?!?!?

I cannot win for losing.

37 & 36

I'm sick all the time and it sucks. Only a month really left, and I'm still miserable all the time. Hate it. :(

38

I think I have strep...again. The pain in my ear has not gone, and now I'm adding pain. I hate hate hate this.

I need a true vacation. At least a week.

I want to visit friends in different places but can't. Sad.

39

You always want things you shouldn't. I'm such a study on this subject I feel like a specialist or something.

I know my outlook on life is considered weird. I know it's abnormal. But I'm just more in tune with reality. I certainly know myself well enough to know that what I do on a fairly regular basis is TOTALLY not accepted in society.

Funny thing is, society does all those things, but they just try to hide it.

Makes me sick.

I just wanna be me and I really want to start enjoying the life I've got left.

Cheers

40

Set the clocks back tonight. My god I can't take this pain in my ear anymore. It's awful.

And seriously I need to find someone that's available to me when I want.

I can't take not having what I need anymore .

41

So I'm driving my parents to Chicago tomorrow so my dad can buy a car. It's times like these I'm devastated I don't have more money.

I hate being broke. I just wish for the rest if my life I could be rich instead of poor. I don't think that's too much to ask.

:(

42

42 days. There are only 42 days until Doomsday. hahah I know I know everyone is sick and tired of hearing me call it that. Hmmm wait, no one is reading this so we should be good to go.

Anyhow, the whole point here is that this year has gone by so stinking fast I almost feel like it's still January of 2012 instead of November. That's right, today is November 1, 2012. I mean honestly. No more 20s. I'm going to be 30. UGH it actually makes my stomach hurt to say or write that.

I've made this past year the "Year of Change" I know in my heart that I'm going to continue to do so. I'm going to try my hardest to keep writing in the blog until I've achieved some sort of goal. I've really been working so hard to get healthier and better. To make better decisions and to try to attain goals. Its just really hard. People suck 9 times out of 10 they drive me insane and make me feel like crap.


I have to stop letting other people influence my moods so much. I swear sometimes I feel empathic and all the emotion is just too much for me.


:( Sorry for the drab, crazy post tonight. I'm just  not in the best of moods.


K