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So, I believe the change I need is probably not ready to be a part of my life yet. Or maybe I'm just not ready to b a part of it.

I've found something recently that make me smile and even gives me that feeling of 'happy' albeit I haven't truly tested the theory. I'm just pretty sure I've got about 8 more years before this is a possibility and at that point it won't be the same.

So I guess what I'm saying is enjoy those little moments of happy and don't let anyone take them. They can be few and far between and should be enjoyed whenever possible before life punches you in the face.

K