So, I always have so many things to say if this were a conversation, but when I go to write them all down, they just disappear.
I was going to share with you the complete and total pain I've been experiencing for months now. I'm finally taking the time to do the research and figure out what the hell I'm going to do.
I have PTTD. (Post Tiberial Tendon Dysfunction) My left ankle is almost completely turned in. I am only 30 years old. Almost every case I've found online writes about this being age-induced or sports induced. I can tell you that neither applies to me. Again, an issue with karma.
WHAT DID I DO?????? Grrr stupid Emperor of the Universe.
Anyhow, short explanation of PTTD is that it causes slow deformity of the foot, collapsing the natural arch and eventually rolling the ankle inward, creating pain beyond your best imaginings. I wake up every single day in pain and I go to bed in the same state. I usually try to keep these things to myself as everyone I know just thinks I'm crying wolf all the time, or just find me to be very sick. I hear things like "You're always sick." or "Jeez Kristi is anything NOT wrong with you?" So, I don't like telling everyone all the problems I have. It sounds ridiculous even to my ears.
However, at this point I could no longer ignore the pain. I"ve attempted to wrap my ankle and arch with ACE bandage. I've purchased a semi-rigid ankle brace and I still have my custom-made orthotics. I've been trying to wear sneakers to alleviate this pain and I have to say, nothing is working. I decided to suck it up and call the doctor. Tried my PCP and didnt get a call back. Then, I decided to call the doctor's office that I originally went to, over 6 years ago. They are getting me in April 23rd, so I will have more to share at that point. I know the orthotics aren't helping me at all. The pain in my feet is astronomical and nothing OTC touches it. I want to lose weight desperately, but when I tell people that WALKING, just the simple act of walking to the bathroom, causes me so much pain I can't hardly handle it they assume I'm just coming up with excuses why NOT to exercise.
NOT TRUE!!!
I wish I could let someone live in my body for one day to experience the amount of pain that I deal with on a day to day basis. Then ask them what THEY think of it.
I'm rambling, I do apologize. My whole point here, is that I hurt every day and I'm sooo effing sick of it. I am too young for this shit. So, I'm going to figure out if there is anything I can do in the meantime. Will keep you posted!!
Kristi
I was going to share with you the complete and total pain I've been experiencing for months now. I'm finally taking the time to do the research and figure out what the hell I'm going to do.
I have PTTD. (Post Tiberial Tendon Dysfunction) My left ankle is almost completely turned in. I am only 30 years old. Almost every case I've found online writes about this being age-induced or sports induced. I can tell you that neither applies to me. Again, an issue with karma.
WHAT DID I DO?????? Grrr stupid Emperor of the Universe.
Anyhow, short explanation of PTTD is that it causes slow deformity of the foot, collapsing the natural arch and eventually rolling the ankle inward, creating pain beyond your best imaginings. I wake up every single day in pain and I go to bed in the same state. I usually try to keep these things to myself as everyone I know just thinks I'm crying wolf all the time, or just find me to be very sick. I hear things like "You're always sick." or "Jeez Kristi is anything NOT wrong with you?" So, I don't like telling everyone all the problems I have. It sounds ridiculous even to my ears.
However, at this point I could no longer ignore the pain. I"ve attempted to wrap my ankle and arch with ACE bandage. I've purchased a semi-rigid ankle brace and I still have my custom-made orthotics. I've been trying to wear sneakers to alleviate this pain and I have to say, nothing is working. I decided to suck it up and call the doctor. Tried my PCP and didnt get a call back. Then, I decided to call the doctor's office that I originally went to, over 6 years ago. They are getting me in April 23rd, so I will have more to share at that point. I know the orthotics aren't helping me at all. The pain in my feet is astronomical and nothing OTC touches it. I want to lose weight desperately, but when I tell people that WALKING, just the simple act of walking to the bathroom, causes me so much pain I can't hardly handle it they assume I'm just coming up with excuses why NOT to exercise.
NOT TRUE!!!
I wish I could let someone live in my body for one day to experience the amount of pain that I deal with on a day to day basis. Then ask them what THEY think of it.
I'm rambling, I do apologize. My whole point here, is that I hurt every day and I'm sooo effing sick of it. I am too young for this shit. So, I'm going to figure out if there is anything I can do in the meantime. Will keep you posted!!
Kristi
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