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I. Still. Can't. Hear. The End


Okay, so that isn't the end as I've realized how UN-productive I've been around here lately. However, I'm freaking out about the whole not being able to hear thing. I'm seriously scared that I'm losing my hearing. WTF am I going to do people? Oh that's right, no one is reading, but SERIOUSLY?! I have my appointment Thursday with the ENT doctor and that's all fine and good, but now its been going on about 2 weeks of me not being able to hear properly and I can't live like this. Things sound so funny.

Okay, on a completely different note, I realized that this has basically turned into a big bitch session for me. I didn't intend for that, but hey, it's just for me anyways. I just am so negative and have been accused of such recently. While I realize that I am pessimistic and sarcastic as a general rule, I must admit that it is very frustrating to be called out on being negative. I mean...it's who I am, right?

Well, no. People can change, at least a little bit.


Isn't that what this next 329 days is all about? It's about me changing my life. I'm working on it, but I feel like I'm about at my "give-up" stage. Just don't care right now. I am living with this awful ringing/sloshy/pain in my ear and I can't live like this forever. Seriously, its awful and its nonstop.

Please GOD if someone is listening or cares FIX IT. Make me better so i can stop focusing on this pain and frustration and move back on to the changing my life. This is sooooo not what I mean when I said I wanted to change my life. I didn't say I wanted to go deaf.


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