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I have problems. I just want to say that. I need to do this. I've wanted to keep this up all year, we're heading into August, heading into the downward slope toward the end. I doubt very much that I'll continue this blog after my year is up. I thought I'd be better at this.

I had the best of intentions. I thought I'd write something that someone might actually want to read when in reality I'm just going to look back and see that I complained about my situation a lot, I couldn't bring myself to change so many things, I gave up Mt Dew, went Gluten Free and lost 15lbs.

That's it. That's all I've accomplished. I'm so broke I can't hardly stand it. It's impossible to be healthy and broke at the same time. I desperately want to step into healthy habits. I desperately want to be smaller. I truly truly do. I've been contemplating doing Weight Watchers again, then I think about it and realize its like a waste of money. Ugh I'm soooo sick of complaining. I'm so tired of hoping and seeing my body. It's awful. Just crappy.

Man, to anyone who stumbles upon this, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry that this is all about my woes and is so full of bitchiness. I don't mean to be a Debbie Downer. Please know that i realize there are many things I should be grateful for. I know many people don't have what I have. However, there are even more things I wish I could do. So many things I wish I could see. That's what makes things so hard.

Lots of love to anyone out there who struggles with anything in their lives an especially with their weight. Let's hope we get through it.

Xoxo