I am a terrible giver-upper. Obviously, I've been seriously slacking on the postage of my blog. I know I know, don't give up, but the truth is. I am giving up. I'm not gonna go back to the Mt Dew, or even all the soda, but I've got it in my head that all these changes aren't even doing anything for me. It's depressing.
I'm sick, my throat still hurts and now my ear is hurting again and there's lots of pressure. I've been trying so damn hard to get healthier for over 7 months now and all I've got is nowhere.
The fourth of July is in two days and it's almost like a joke. What do I have to show for myself? Nothing. Everyone uses me for everything. I fix people. I know that sounds dramatic and most likely self-gratifying, but it's the truth.
I am constantly making people happy and making them see things from another angle. But not myself. I'm just miserable lately and I want it to stop.
Why can't I be happy? And p.s. Jesus is NOT the answer. Just in case anyone who believes that all my heartache will go away if I become devout. No offense to you and your happy, I respect you, but it isn't for me.
Thanks,
Kristi
I'm sick, my throat still hurts and now my ear is hurting again and there's lots of pressure. I've been trying so damn hard to get healthier for over 7 months now and all I've got is nowhere.
The fourth of July is in two days and it's almost like a joke. What do I have to show for myself? Nothing. Everyone uses me for everything. I fix people. I know that sounds dramatic and most likely self-gratifying, but it's the truth.
I am constantly making people happy and making them see things from another angle. But not myself. I'm just miserable lately and I want it to stop.
Why can't I be happy? And p.s. Jesus is NOT the answer. Just in case anyone who believes that all my heartache will go away if I become devout. No offense to you and your happy, I respect you, but it isn't for me.
Thanks,
Kristi
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