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Closer and closer the day approaches. Closer and closer and closer.....I can actually feel 30 now. I'm no longer IN my twenties. I can feel that tension and oldness as the time passes.

I can't believe how fast the year has gone by. I started this blog just to keep track, and to try to keep a promise to myself. Well, the picture you see here shows I have indeed, NOT cut my hair. Holy CROW is it long.

I did give up Mt Dew, I lost a few pounds. I dunno, was it worth it? Have I accomplished enough to actually say I've accomplished something? Have I changed at all? I've had a few epiphanies along the way and they have changed me and the way I think.

I'm actually trying my damnedest to eat a little better. I definitely can see the benefits of some healthier eating habits. I know that my body is just NOT doing so great and to be honest it's been screaming at me for years to get better. It's funny to me how bad it all really is. I think that's the main reason I avoid the doctor so much, because they always tell me how messed up I am and how it's like a medical miracle that I'm up and about walking around. Honestly Doc, I just deal.

I'm going to this chiropractor now that seems just amazed at how messed up my body is, he remarks on how bad I am all the time and how they maneuvers he does on me are like those they use on old people. I know right? how complimentary is THAT?

Well, anyhow. I feel it creeping up on me. I've been trying really hard this year and I'm starting to feel that is going to have to suffice. I don't think the 30 lb goal is going to happen. I'm  holding steady at 15-20. Here's the deal, I HAVE to lose at least 50 lbs by Ashley's wedding. I absolutely refuse to be her fat friend in those wedding pictures. I cannot handle it if I am forever immortalized in pictures of her wedding day as the fat girl with huge tits. I just can't have it.

Perhaps I'll have to continue this blog into next year. So 365 up to 30 and the first 365 after? I dunno what do you think? Obviously I haven't exactly kept up with this.. I've tried as hard as I can to post every day, but I just forget. I'm terrible with this stuff. I have so many people telling me that I should be a write but the truth is I'm better at speeches. lol

Anyhow,  I'm done for today. Sorry again for lacking the ability to write in here every day.

Side Note: I've been doing the honey thing for a week and it has definitely made my skin softer. I've been having my friend Ashley try it too and she reports softer skin, not less breakouts yet, but definite softer skin. I'll keep you posted.


Cheers,
Kristi