People are idiots. Did you know that? I'm sorry if you're offended by that statement and consider yourself to be in the "people" category.
I know and firmly believe that everyone has their own opinion. I also know that I tend to be a very passionate person about my own ideas and views. ( Or at least, that's what I've been told) :)
I just wish that as a general rule people would think before they speak. They annoy me.
I gained 5 lbs. Five Freaking LBS. What the hell is wrong with me that I cant seem to get healthy? I've got 100 days left of this year, OH HOW FAST the time has gone. I've accomplished what could be considered a LOT but in reality I still really feel like a failure. I just want to be smaller and prettier and healthier. I want to have no gray/white hairs, no wrinkles and less cellulite. I think it's a perfectly reasonable request to have these things.
I put my self and my life on hold to do what I thought was right at the time, and I've been stuck in a vortex of doubt, worry, stress and hazy ideas ever since. I thought that making this statement would bring me back into a reality of Kristi and perhaps I'd find a little bit more of myself this year and what I actually want to do with my life.
For some reason, I'm still feeling blah about everything. Now it almost seems like things are worse. I just keep wanting more and more with no ideas on how to get them, or with any acceptance of what I already DO have.
Just as a reminder to myself:
I can see. Maybe my eyes hurt and I complain, but I can read what I'm typing. I can see my son's face when I look at him. Not everyone is so lucky.
I have a roof over my head.
I have a car.
It runs.
I have a job.
I have food in my house, might not be exactly what I want, and it might not even taste all that great, but there's food. There's something that I can cook and put in my mouth to fill my belly.
I can hear. Without music and the ability to hear it, I think my life would be over.
I have the most wonderful family anyone could ask for. If I didnt see or speak to my mom every single day, I wouldn't know how to live my life.
I know that if I start to fall, I have a place to go where someone will not only CATCH me, they will carry me if I need them to do so.
My son gets enough food. More than actually.
I have great toys and a few really great friends. I'm good with that only adding up on one hand.
I know what I need to do to get my life back on track here people, I think it's just the missteps along the way that are holding me up. I need to give up one certain bad habit and I just CANT seem to do it. I need to stop eating candy or anything of the sort. Chocolate is NOT good for you. Not in the excess that I always seem to end up eating it anyways.
KRISTI!! Pay attention here. You NEED to do something. 5lb gain is unacceptable. If you gain one more pound, you're most likely going to spiral into the abyss of depression that you can NOT afford to spiral into. GET HEALTHY. Figure it out for God's sake.
With Love,
Kristi
I know and firmly believe that everyone has their own opinion. I also know that I tend to be a very passionate person about my own ideas and views. ( Or at least, that's what I've been told) :)
I just wish that as a general rule people would think before they speak. They annoy me.
I gained 5 lbs. Five Freaking LBS. What the hell is wrong with me that I cant seem to get healthy? I've got 100 days left of this year, OH HOW FAST the time has gone. I've accomplished what could be considered a LOT but in reality I still really feel like a failure. I just want to be smaller and prettier and healthier. I want to have no gray/white hairs, no wrinkles and less cellulite. I think it's a perfectly reasonable request to have these things.
I put my self and my life on hold to do what I thought was right at the time, and I've been stuck in a vortex of doubt, worry, stress and hazy ideas ever since. I thought that making this statement would bring me back into a reality of Kristi and perhaps I'd find a little bit more of myself this year and what I actually want to do with my life.
For some reason, I'm still feeling blah about everything. Now it almost seems like things are worse. I just keep wanting more and more with no ideas on how to get them, or with any acceptance of what I already DO have.
Just as a reminder to myself:
I can see. Maybe my eyes hurt and I complain, but I can read what I'm typing. I can see my son's face when I look at him. Not everyone is so lucky.
I have a roof over my head.
I have a car.
It runs.
I have a job.
I have food in my house, might not be exactly what I want, and it might not even taste all that great, but there's food. There's something that I can cook and put in my mouth to fill my belly.
I can hear. Without music and the ability to hear it, I think my life would be over.
I have the most wonderful family anyone could ask for. If I didnt see or speak to my mom every single day, I wouldn't know how to live my life.
I know that if I start to fall, I have a place to go where someone will not only CATCH me, they will carry me if I need them to do so.
My son gets enough food. More than actually.
I have great toys and a few really great friends. I'm good with that only adding up on one hand.
I know what I need to do to get my life back on track here people, I think it's just the missteps along the way that are holding me up. I need to give up one certain bad habit and I just CANT seem to do it. I need to stop eating candy or anything of the sort. Chocolate is NOT good for you. Not in the excess that I always seem to end up eating it anyways.
KRISTI!! Pay attention here. You NEED to do something. 5lb gain is unacceptable. If you gain one more pound, you're most likely going to spiral into the abyss of depression that you can NOT afford to spiral into. GET HEALTHY. Figure it out for God's sake.
With Love,
Kristi
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