I've had the past on my mind a LOT lately. Can't quite seem to shake the memories I thought I'd long forgotten.
I can't decide if my subconscious is slowly "flashing" my life before my eyes because I'm not going to be around soon and so I'm remembering a lot of things I actually wish I could forget. Or perhaps my heart and mind are more in synch than I thought and the approach of D-Day 2012 is really getting in there and playing tricks with my mind.
All year I've done nothing but talk about how much I want to change my life and here I am stuck in the same spot, but at the same time perhaps I'm not stuck.
I think a lot of things I've learned are that it's a state of mind as well as its a physical change. I've convinced myself that I don't need Mt Dew, and I know that is always my fallback answer, but the truth is it was VERY hard for me to give that up, and yet I did it.
Soooooooooo I've convinced myself that I like salad, even though in reality I can't stand them. So, I'l eat them. I am currently taking a hiatus from candy as well. It's halloween time and I've really been craving sweets lately, but NO CANDY!!!
So, who knows. Perhaps 2012 will actually be the complete and total year of change for me after all.
Love,
Kristi
I know NO ONE is reading this, but just to be on the safe side. HELLO Random viewers!!!!
I can't decide if my subconscious is slowly "flashing" my life before my eyes because I'm not going to be around soon and so I'm remembering a lot of things I actually wish I could forget. Or perhaps my heart and mind are more in synch than I thought and the approach of D-Day 2012 is really getting in there and playing tricks with my mind.
All year I've done nothing but talk about how much I want to change my life and here I am stuck in the same spot, but at the same time perhaps I'm not stuck.
I think a lot of things I've learned are that it's a state of mind as well as its a physical change. I've convinced myself that I don't need Mt Dew, and I know that is always my fallback answer, but the truth is it was VERY hard for me to give that up, and yet I did it.
Soooooooooo I've convinced myself that I like salad, even though in reality I can't stand them. So, I'l eat them. I am currently taking a hiatus from candy as well. It's halloween time and I've really been craving sweets lately, but NO CANDY!!!
So, who knows. Perhaps 2012 will actually be the complete and total year of change for me after all.
Love,
Kristi
I know NO ONE is reading this, but just to be on the safe side. HELLO Random viewers!!!!
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